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I Am Watching…

Zero Fucks Given

Freedom may be dangerous to your health.

I am watching America do a thing: with words and images; events are being tied to political movements with highly contentious and passionate followers, who are easily ‘triggered’ by words.


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Trigger warning: your sensitivity could be the mechanism of your enslavement.

A ‘trigger word’ even changes which part of the brain is being predominantly used. It can immediately shut down critical thinking and cause a person or groups opinion to become negatively biased, regardless of facts that may contradict that negativity.


There are many words that are effective ‘triggers’. This form of ‘triggering’ has become even more effective with a rise in a behavior of ‘waiting to be offended’ where someone actively seeks to become the ‘victim’ of someones ‘words, thoughts or ideas.’ When a person becomes ‘triggered’ there is a tendency to fall back on established bias. This is a part of our mechanism for self preservation, and we have it for a good reason (a negative bias towards the smell of rotten food, for instance).


This pattern of behavior has been hacked using fear as the ‘virus’. Hacked and exploited by a corrupt elite who believes they are above the law, and above the reach of ‘commoners.’

It is no coincidence that the media and the white house are pouring gasoline onto the flames of bias and hatred right now: this is a smokescreen to keep people from talking about what appears to be the total corruption of the US Federal Government.
The way the ‘press’ is handling the information about these shootings, the violence at protests and political rallies is all designed to create civil unrest and fear for the purpose of dividing and distracting. Whatever power it is out there that orchestrates this shit, it knows what it’s doing, and it knows how to create divisions where there are none and push deep wedges into existing cracks.

But really, there is only one enemy as far as I am concerned- the invisible cartel that is controlling our government. As far as I can tell, regrettably few people ever see it this way. Many fail to acknowledge the hard truths that we must acknowledge is we are going to move forward:

Hard truths:

#1 – US Foreign policy is from the top down stupid and reckless.

#2 Over legislation has led to over policing and the creation of an isolated community of Law Enforcement that is charged with policing communities that, due to over legislation and a racially biased court system, refuse to be policed.


#3 Government corruption is, at present, accepted and well tolerated by a majority of the US population.

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#4 This corrupt system seems to be approaching it’s failure point.

The hardest truth of all:

#5 We, all of us, let this happen. Each and every one of us is to blame.

I want my country back.

It’s not too late.

We can do it.

I am not against cops, I am not against civil rights. I am not against people being kind and respectful to each other.I am not against arguing and disagreeing.

I am fully against what is happening to us as a country, and a society. Too few of us have any clue what freedom really is: dangerous, experimental, wild, natural and full of choices.
With our freedom, we have made some very bad choices, and now we are reaping the consequences.

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We must Freedom the fuck on.


-Thomas Cashman
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The truth about cannabis and children. (Opinion)


Cannabis Heals

Cannabis, although it can be used to treat pain, anxiety, stress and a multitude of other symptoms, is not a drug. It’s similar to a food, but it isn’t that either. It is something different. As a society, we lack an accurate definition of this plant which has led to much hysteria.

As much as certain people would like to assume that cannabis is bad for kids, truth is, we don’t really know because there haven’t been many well executed, unbiased studies done – the studies that have been done were biased to look for harm as part of the war on drugs.

Even with such an enormous bias, at least one study painted a very different picture of the effects of cannabis on pregnant women than anyone expected: ” The results show no significant differences in developmental testing outcomes between children of marijuana-using and non-using mothers except at 30 days of age when the babies of users had more favourable scores on two clusters of the Brazelton Scales: autonomic stability and reflexes. The developmental scores at ages 4 and 5 years were significantly correlated to certain aspects of the home environment and to regularity of basic school (preschool) attendance.” (

With no clear indication of harm – even after so many studies biased to prove harm – it seems to me that we should, at the very least, suspend assumption that cannabis is bad for children.

Cannabis isn’t scary – you know what is? Watching a child have a seizure is scary. Watching a child have a seizure because they do not have access to cannabis is infuriating and scary. Infuriating because someone, somewhere is ‘scared that its bad for kids.’ You know whats bad for kids? Illness, pain, seizures and the apathy of the fearful – that’s bad for kids. 

-Thomas Cashman

A Civilian Perspective on Veterans & Cannabis

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Left to right: Mandyjoe De la Torre, Teddy Montoya and Kim West. Photo by Thomas Cashman


When you go college, as I do, you tend to develop a system of labels and stereotypes for just about every group of people you might encounter, it’s just human nature to define things.

When you go to a school with a whole lot of veterans (about 30% of the student body) they are just another group group of students with a label. However, the unintended side effects of such a stereotype creates yet another obstacle for veterans already dealing with re-assimilating to civilian life often while dealing with issues such as PTSD, traumatic brain injuries (TBI) and/or chronic pain of some kind.

One veteran, Thomas Cashman, had this to say; “People would thank me for my service right before slowly backing away.”

That quote is actually referring to a story Cashman relates about his own personal experience at The Art Institute of Portland. Cashman, who is now vice president for the Grow for Vets, Portland Oregon Chapter, does not seem to have that problem anymore.

When asked what made the difference his response was; “I realized that my intensity, my demeanor was off putting. I had to lighten up. I had to open up. Cannabis helped with both of those things”.

Veterans Take on Cannabis

While most people would not typically relate cannabis and veterans there are many who want that to see that change. Grow for Vets is an organization that advocates for cannabis use among veterans. They focus on educating veterans and providing them with medicine. The Portland, OR chapter is even working towards solutions to create opportunities for veterans to work and learn to grow their own medicine.

Cannabis can be a powerful tool to ease pain, anxieties and improve mood, but it does not happen in a vacuum. Isolation is a common side effect of many conditions that veterans are faced with with daily. Cannabis cultivation is a community effort that frequently brings grower, processors and patients together.

As it turns out if you put veterans to work in an environment where they can make a difference, while being able to use cannabis, you can actually see them start to heal right in front of your eyes.

A Civilian Perspective on Veterans & Cannabis

There are many who may have a difficult time accepting cannabis as a viable medical treatment, but I have to say; after spending time with Grow for Vets it is apparent to me that veterans and cannabis just go together.

I am a civilian. As a civilian, I can tell you that it can be awkward to sit and watch a group of veterans bonding over cannabis. Awkward but not uncomfortable. The awkwardness is not because they are unapproachable, rather it is because it is very obvious when you aren’t one of them.

Still, amidst the awkwardness, what you see is beautiful.

A newly discharged veteran approaches the group and there is instant camaraderie. A ‘knowing’ of what it is to serve, strengthened through a common love of cannabis. Laughter, and human connection…an extended family that is always growing and changing. That is what I see when I watch Kim and Teddy and Thomas and the other veterans-A continued love and desire to serve, to give back to this military family that has seen so much death, and destruction.

“I made it through some of the hardest days and nights of my life because of these folks” says Thomas, “I know we can get through any challenge the same way: together.”

These veterans aren’t just healing themselves, they are showing us how it’s done;

One step at a time, one boot in front of the other. Together.


Portland, Oregon Grow for Vets kick-off event. Photo by Thomas Cashman

This article was written in anticipation of the upcoming Grow for Vets event in Portland Oregon. The event is open to both civilians and veterans and is a great opportunity to come support an awesome veterans organization and walk out with a cannabis gift bag (while supplies last). Mark your calendar for April, 24 2016 the event is scheduled to take place at Refuge PDX from 2pm-5pm. Pre-register  to guarantee admission here. CBZ media will be at the event and we would love to meet you so please say hi if you see us!




Setting intentions for the day using The Dark Exact Tarot Cards, and not how Tarot are usually used: we picked cards out to set the intentions of this stalwart crew of creatives known as CBZ Media. The Moon for our crazy random history, The High Priestess to help us along with our creative ways, while we reach out to the Stars in out future.

Coleman, we are loving these cards!

Note: our Science Consultant, Valerie has hand crafted a special bag for the cards. She re-used the draw string and bead from the original bag (which now has a new home in our “tactile inspiration” basket.)


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After a long afternoon of pre-finals review I headed back to the east side to kick my heels up for a bit while I wait for the CBZ Media creative director to get out of class. I caught the #9 and got off at at SE 12th and Powell. I walked over to the The Terpene Station (1436 SE Powell Blvd.) where I found a gram  Primo Extracts‘ Jack Herer shatter for $30.  I noticed from the test date that it was about three months old, but it was still aromatic with that subtle skunky tone that I love. Between the smell and Solei’s assurance I was happy to give up my cash.

In front of an e-nail a half hour later, shatter and an eighth of Kashmir Kush ($9/gram) and a vanilla latte from the the Southeast Grind, I fed the nail a smallish to medium sized chunk of the light amber substance and inhaled it deeply.

It was rich and warm in the lungs, and as I coughed it out I felt it climb up the back of my legs, soothing my psyatic as it crept up my back and over the top of my head.  5 minutes later I was relaxed, happy.Subsequent dabs proved the potency of the strain as well as the skill of the extractors.

Although the character of our plans were changed, we were determined to get our first CBZ Media video online. With our original location unavailable, we made due with my tiny apartment, throwing up some random artwork and a State of Oregon flag for a backdrop.

Here is a special preview of CBZ Media [IN EXILE], we hope you enjoy it!


Grow for Vets Eugene kick off event this weekend!!



It just keeps growing! This weekend, the brand new Eugene Chapter is kicking off with an event at Whirled Pies pizza. Admission is free for members.


Register/Membership Signup

You don’t have to be a vet to be a member! There are civilian memberships as well as sponsorship available. Every day GFV is restoring sleep, relieving pain and combating canna-bias.


Veterans need the support and understanding of our neighbors just as much as our preferred  medicine. It’s not just about a plant, it’s about community, healing and setting the stage for a better, healthier future free of toxic synthetic compounds (Pharmaceuticals).

Help Grow for Vets help more veterans by donating, sponsoring and participating.

Be the change with us!


Preregister online! Free for members!


Thomas Cashman




In Response to the Confusion: Dependence or Addiction

An article popped up on my Facebook newsfeed today it was titled: I’m Dependent on Narcotics; That Doesn’t Mean I’m an Addict. Generally I skim these articles and move on but today was different… I read the comments and actually replied to one as well.

The comment that caught my attention was this;

Addicts will use any way they can to justify why they need to continue to use pain meds. While I do believe that there are some people out there that truly honestly need pain meds, the vast majority of people on pain meds are addicts.
If you can have a procedure done that would eliminate your pain and you wouldn’t have to take pain meds anymore but you continue to take the pain meds and avoid the surgery you are an addict. And once you are physically dependent upon a drug that is exactly what an addict is.

There is something special about this almost moderate ignorance, it’s made worse by the fact that he is not technically wrong. (This comment actually makes me wonder if this guy is not an addictions counselor or something.) When they released the latest Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders or  DSM-5 they felt they could no longer clearly define the differences between an addiction and a dependency. My personal belief is that people were starting to see through some of the false social messaging so the American Psychiatric Association did what any good marketer does and they re-branded…again, this is just my own personal belief. At any rate, they replaced dependency and addiction with the label “substance use disorder”.

Now I have not been overly vocal about my relationship with cannabis before this. However, as I left this comment about my journey with prescription pain medication, adding my voice to many others who have come to rely on them and think of them as their only option, it just didn’t seem right to share how I am almost completely off of my prescription pain medication and not share how it was possible. It also does not seem right to share some of my story with the world and not share it with the people I work with and interact with every day. So here is my response to the comment:

In my way of thinking the difference between dependence and addiction is the intents and purposes behind its use. The author uses pain medication as prescribed for a medical condition. There are likely days when this is not quite enough and she still has intense pain. While I’m not saying addicts don’t try to mask their addiction, there are many people who are truly dependent on both prescription painkillers and other prescription drugs that are not painkillers at all. While I do hope my story brings you a better understanding I’m not counting on it. I’m sharing it anyway, on the off chance it helps someone in some way.

I have chronic pain due to car accidents and other health issues. I have been on Tramadol for years. I have an autoimmune disorder (my immune system attacks my body as if it was a virus) and there is no surgery to fix either, nor is there much medical expertise related to the particular type of autoimmune condition I have.

I take Tramadol. I used the maximum prescribed dose for a long time, often putting it off as long as possible because I did not want to take the pill.

I watched my body endure side effects of medication that were still better than the alternative of living in pain every day. With family, work and school I, quite literally, cannot afford to be in that much pain. It is beyond difficult to be in a position where the best “solution” is essentially poisoning and polluting your body. Yet I found myself completely dependent, almost hostage to it, and I relate to the author.

That being said, I decided I could not do it anymore and I have been vigilantly decreasing my meds. This results in excruciating nerve pain, in addition to the pain I already suffer from. I get periods of dizziness, I get lightheaded if I turn my head too quickly- like when someone calls my name, among other things. Many of my symptoms occur because Tramadol works like an antidepressant, it effects norepinephrine and serotonin in the brain to change how the body interprets pain. If I stopped taking Tramadol all at once, the resulting withdrawal would have been crippling- this is because my body has become DEPENDENT.

Let me be clear, I am discontinuing pain meds because it is the right choice for me. It may not be the right choice for everyone. Also, and this is important-

I STILL HAVE CHRONIC PAIN! It did not go away when I decided I couldn’t take these meds anymore. I had to find a different solution. My solution is medical marijuana- I am fortunate enough to live in a state that has legalized it. Cannabis has improved not only pain but my overall health, and quality of life as well. It is also the medical marijuana that made the excruciating withdrawal from Tramadol bearable.

If you are in my position and want to move away from pain pills (even non-prescribed ones) I would encourage you to consider medical marijuana if you are in a place where it is legal. For those of you who are afraid of it, ask questions. I can tell you, from experience, that there are a number of medical options that allow use without the sensation of being high if that is a concern. There is also a multitude of strains, and if you have an open conversation people will happily help you find something to help with your specific symptoms. Another thing to consider, no dies from medical use of marijuana…just a thought.


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War on Drugs

Untitled designCannabis is proving every single day, in labs and living rooms, that it is an effective alternative to opioids, SSRI’s and narcotics with zero risk of overdose.

It’s plain to see by the popularity of old anti-drug PSA’s (I am a bit scared by #7 and just plain horrified by #1) and parodies on YouTube, that the war on drugs, if not over, is certainly preparing for a massive withdrawal. As we wind down from this failed campaign, lets take a moment to recognize some of the long-term damage done by this misguided attempt at unwanted nanny-ing.

1) Lives

According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. National Vital Statistics System mortality data for 2015, “Every day in the United States, 44 people die as a result of prescription opioid overdose. Cannabis is proving, in labs and living rooms, every single day that it is an effective alternative to opioids, SSRI’s and narcotics with zero risk of overdose.


2) Credibility

Anyone who tried to push this message has had their credibility damaged by it. But every time a teacher, police officer, politician or celebrity lied about the effects of marijuana to young people who knew better, their word became suspect. Courts, law enforcement and parents alike all suffered loss of credibility.

I can’t imagine too many people involved in the creation of those campaigns put it on their resume or LinkedIn. I would imagine a number of them may have been compelled to make PSA’s as part of their community service.

Community service for possession of a few flowers? Maybe? Likely? Certain.

3) Time

Time was wasted. Time that could have been used engaging in unbiased studies of cannabis and it’s effects. Studies on cannabis and cancer, cannabis and pain, cannabis and seizures. Real pain and real suffering could have been averted. Time that people could have longer lives, with less pain and more hugs, and dancing…lots of dancing.

4) Money

According to the nonprofit Drug Sense Map INC.  “The U.S. federal government spent over $15 billion dollars in 2010 on the War on Drugs, at a rate of about $500 per second.” I would give you the yearly total for federal and state spending but it increases by the second, literally. So instead I found this fun little online clock that keeps a running total of spending. Check out the War On Drugs (WOD clock).

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5) More Money

According to Bloomberg Business “Colorado collected $63 million in tax revenue and an additional $13 million in licenses and fees on $699 million of combined medical and recreational pot sales in 2014.” For a state like Oregon, this kind of revenue and job creation is vitally important. It is an effective and viable replacement to the nearly extinct logging industry.